first and foremost, i want to thank you all for this. it really meant a lot. lately life has been sucky and stressful and you guys have made it bearable for me. thank you all so much. ILU FLIST <3 <3 <3

anyways, there is absolutely nothing to look forward to for Christmas break except intense sad because of Rice, exams, Doctor Who, and my sisterr. who i love but really don't want her to be here right now, because it will just kill me even more. i feel bad for feeling jealous. i mean, i understand that she got into baylor med. i'm happy. but her being here, always whenever i fail at making my parents happy just really hurts me. and this one hurts a lot, because i've been chasing after this dream- this college for three years, and so has she and it feels like i'm always pale in comparison and losing to her. and what makes it worse is that she's so distant and yet humble. i really hate that. but i still love her. i mean, she's great, and we were never that close, but still, her being here will only remind me of my patheticness and when my parents are happy it'll only remind me all the more of what i can never do and what she can. and oh god, tears are coming to my eyes. this hurts a lot. *sighs*

idk when i'll recover. it'll take time. i don't think i'll ever be able to recuperate. Rice was my dream. MY dream. not my parents. so it really hurts.

anyways, out from the emo and into the today, i'm pretty sure i'm going to fail BC Cal. but that's okay, because i have A's in all my other classes (EVEN ENGLISH OMG YAY) and i really don't care about math anymore. i mean, what the hell does integrals have to do with PRE MED? yeah, i didn't see the connection there either.

.....and that's pretty much all i can think of. oh, and wtf tiger woods, get a life. a real one. and gaga, i love your songs, but you need to go to an asylum. please. for your sake and society's. you can still compose your cracked up awesome songs there, but please, before you end up, idk, destroying singapore or something, please go. also, OWL CITY i love your tunes but your lyrics are crack!tastic and you need to stop dosing on LSD or something. i still kinda like you but since you went all mainstream due to stupid itunes idk if you're cool now. thanks, natasha.

:D :D :D <3 <3 <3 LUV YOU ALL SO MUCH. to celebrate christmas spirit, (ironically, which i kinda loathe) POST THE FOLLOWING AND I SHALL WRITE YOU A FIC OF CHOICE.

1.) pairing
2.) any fruit
3.) christmas present
4.) book title.

me = Rose this time. XD

THURSDAY NEEDS TO COME RIGHT NOW OR ELSE I'M GONNA EXPLODE.

FRINGE, FUCK YOU AND COME ON ALREADY. or i might have to point a gun at j.j abrams' head.

//offtopic: back to grafixing. so expect a batch soon :D

 i am officially in love with io echo and new york pony club.

you've heard them before, you just don't know it. remember that palm pre commercial? and the song that goes "you got me under my skin"? and then the cube commercial song? yeah. those.

SO GO LISTEN TO THEM. i mean, you can even friend them on facebook for god's sake. XD

also; i am going to be of wizarding age in FIVE days! yahoo!

how is everyone's summer going? i'm sorry that i can't keep up with LJ and a social life in general- i have so much WORK! gah!

but i'm SO EXCITED FOR HBP GUYS. NO, REALLY. 12:01 AM GUYS. who else is going? just want to know. it's kind of a cool feeling when you're sitting in a theater and you're like "hey, my flist is in another theater in another part of the world, at the SAME time, watching the SAME movie!" 

EXCEPT.

EXCEPT EXCEPT EXCEPT MY SISTER GETS TO WATCH A PRESCREENED VERSION OF THE MOVIE ON MONDAY. NO FAIR. SO SHE SEES IT BEFORE EVERYONE ELSE. STUPID YALE. *is supremely jealous*

but anyway, hope you guys are having an awesome one. i love you all so very much. <3 <3 <3 you know that, right? LJ is the best thing that's happened to me, no kidding. &hearts &hearts &hearts

GH

PS: i started merlin, and finished it! it's ruddy brilliant! and leverage and royal pains, and burn notice as well. :D and they're good. i thought RP would be sucky, but it's not bad. but still. mm.